I think 15 is an okay age - certainly an age were you can comfortably say that things under that are rape even if the girl said yes because dude - she's fourteen. I have had terrible dating luck. My last "boyfriend" was when I was 11. (I actually think about that and go "Ehh... I was making out with a guy? At 11? Seriously? That's a bit..." He was twelve by the way.) My last actual dating thing ended with me playing Fable 3 with him and he randomly pulling out his well... I didn't stop to ask what he called it but he did say "Can it come inside?". After I let out a horrified no he asked why. Yeah.
He still tries to talk to me regularly. And tries to sit next to me on the bus. I do want to date - but not enough to go out of my way to do it. Also due to a really touchy-feely friendship with one girl I'm pretty sure most people think I'm gay & spoken for Which doesn't really help the dating aspect. Also I have a chronic bitch-face.
I feel like I could relate so much to this. Also - if one is talking stereotypes I wear a dress but is loud and argumentative and such and I sometimes find myself holding that back when with a guy I kind of like and I really hate doing that. Also I love that poem now.it is not easy for me to admit I care and I often get frustrated when my caring for another person causes me to act in a way that doesn't align with my underlying wants/desires.
Ha, I have a best friend/former girlfriend and a LOT of people think we are together even though they have never known us while we were together because we spend so much time together, show up in the same places, etc. Also that's just a weird relationship in general tbh. Uh, that guy sounds like what he showed you. That's right I said it, dick. Unsolicited advice that is only somewhat related: if you ever find yourself worrying about whether or not to do something like tell a dude off because if you do, it'll be "mean" or "not nice" or you'll be a "frigid bitch" - fuck that asshole, fuck everyone who says you shouldn't do it because you're mean, and tell them off. Hearing about the loud and argumentative makes me feel like you may already have an awareness of that advice though :) Chronic bitch face! I like to call it "active bitch face" as opposed to "resting bitch face." Nah man. My bitch face is active. It's a very great poem. I memorized it once, but I'm afraid in the long run only about half of it stuck.