You can't pretend that this stuff doesn't have an element of danger or that people aren't going to die. But 4 people in 2 years is...a lot...thanks. The dating part is awful, I think some of it is coming out of a 3 year relationship I am not very sharp at even flirting with new people and going through that whole song and dance. And I don't really know if I even want to? I am so busy with hobbies from running to climbing to skiing that it's like...I can just keep doing those things and having just as good of a time. But that's also how you end up 45 and single (I am far away from 45 years old).
It's only been a few months since the breakup, yeah? Coupled with shifting to a new place, trying to get settled into everything - I'm not surprised you're not in the right mindset for it! Same hobbies but a new area might mean you wind up meeting someone organically? Either way, I feel you. The feelings you're describing make a lot of sense!