Bitters please, in a rocks glass with an ice cube. It would suit my mood. I don't come from means. My fiancee does. Her parents promised us a year ago that they would help her with school costs. It turns out that their support is conditional, and because of religion those conditions are not met. It eats at my parents that they weren't able to help me or my siblings out with school. My fiancee's parents are in the position to really give her a head start, get us on a good financial footing when she graduates, and are choosing not to. Because of religion. So we have to figure out where an extra two grand is going to come from in the next few weeks, likely a shitty loan from an established shitty lender. My brother is doing well physically, he's been moved to inpatient rehab. He keeps saying delusional things though like 'I'll be out of here in a week' when nobody on his care team has said anything to that effect. I worry that he will self-discharge before he is ready, it would be in keeping with his past behavior. This is the longest period of time he has spent in one place in many years. This is the longest period of time he has spent around my parents in a similar amount of time and I KNOW that's eating at him. His 'adoptive family' that raised so much hell when he was first brought in from the wreck is nowhere to be seen or heard from, while my parents, who he abused and bad mouthed for years, haven't left his side except for bodily necessities. I wish I had something more positive to say. I saw my counselor last night for the first time in a long time. He was happy to see me, and so far thinks that my responses to various stressors have been appropriate. He was glad to hear that I had put a note in my medical record that contraindicates benzodiazepine prescription, and that my alcohol consumption has dropped to almost nil. We decided that monthly check-ins would be the way forward, plus I am going to start attending his meditation class again because my own practice has been slipping. Make that a double actually.