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kleinbl00  ·  3166 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: I'm a _____ (fill in the blank)

"Failure."

Been one since I was born. It's a comfortable identity, but it comes with a terrible cost. No, I'm not fishing for compliments so let's just STFU about that but it's so easy to believe that your every setback is a result of your fundamental inability to ever amount to anything. Also, your fellow failures never hassle you for what you haven't accomplished.

Some identities we're born into and spend a lifetime escaping.





oyster  ·  3165 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Technically we would all be failures from birth if we viewed failure as a child the same way we view it as an adult. I mean none of us got walking on the first try, and even once we "got it" we still messed up. I quit things when they start to get difficult because I'm afraid to fail. If I was born with that idea I would have just crawled and gave up on walking.

kleinbl00  ·  3165 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Base emotions and gut-level feelings are never technical. That's what makes them so insidious/great.

blackbootz  ·  3165 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Damn. I took for granted that, despite how ragged and hard my childhood was at times, my dad always made me feel that I was the man he never was. Granted, a major barometer of success was to simply not get a girl pregnant before I turned 20, but in lots of other measures, I was made to feel like a champion. I say this because it occurred to me, "what's the opposite of being made to feel like a failure since your first memories," and for that hypothetical I didn't have to look far. I was made to feel like my dad's savior. I never thought hard about what the inverse of that would feel like.

I'm sorry kb. If it helps, by even the strictest standards, I think you're kinda swell. I know you don't draw upon internet love for your self-esteem, but thanks for sharing. I didn't know "failure" factored into your identity.

kingmudsy  ·  3164 days ago  ·  link  ·  

This is weird. That's more how I think about myself, and kind of the last word I would use to describe you.

veen  ·  3165 days ago  ·  link  ·  
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thenewgreen  ·  3165 days ago  ·  link  ·  

You are anything but.