Thanks, Steve; I appreaciate your support, but...

still we are largely unable to help you

...you're wrong. People of Hubski, including you, have been of tremendous help to me so far, making me think about what's going on from other vantage points - which is exactly what I need. I have the resources to overcome many obstacles I face (if not all) - all I need is to understand it and to see the way to do it, and people here have been kind enough and insightful enough to provide me with as much data as I could never hope to acquire on my own. A lot of my personal problems are gone or dimished thanks to what the Hubskifolk told me through the time I've spent here. If that's not help, I don't know what is.

I checked out the uni physchological service today. The cost is quite expensive for my finances - 500 RUB per hour - but... I guess it's worth it. I'll need some time to gather up with going there, but I've saved all the important info. I'll take care of moving to a better apartment first, as it ought to improve my mental state overall.