wasoxygen wrote this to me today which is wildly true and appropriate: Actually, you may be a Hubski user if you constantly struggle with feelings of inadequacy and failure because the list of things you want to do is so much longer than the list of things you get done. So, know that you are not alone. A lot of people see me as someone who has their shit together and is accomplishing tons of shit and is owning life. My secret is.... I'm not. I just pretend I am. Fake it until you make it. Do the best to you can possibly do at what you are doing and let the doors open themselves. Choose which door to walk through in 6 months or a year or whenever you are forced to make a decision. Don't worry too much about where you will be in a year, focus now on having the best time, being the best person you can be (for you.. your partner...your job...your work), and making as many opportunities as you can for yourself. Some things will work out and some won't. But at least you won't regret living life halfway. It's more likely that you will regret that than you will regret making one decision over another.I fail at doing things too.
This is what I'm ruminating on right now and have been grappling with for the last few months. I am itching to move onto the next, more settled stage of my life, but I will only be in this position for a while, so I should enjoy it.