Thanks a lot! I've only been here for a couple of days but I really felt at home and a day or so ago I just felt like typing this up -- I wasn't expecting anybody to see it because I only had about 2 people following me and the tags I used aren't very popular, so it really felt good when I saw such nice comments on my post from people who've been through the same I have.

One of the hardest part of this was not being able to talk to anyone about it -- I've never been the kind to talk about how I feel, I just wasn't raised like that and I don't mind it. But sometimes talking about things like these helps, a lot. I was ashamed to tell people, so I just didn't. I dealt with it on my own, sharing only bits and pieces with a close friend of mine every now and then -- and I feel like I would've progressed much quicker had I had the courage and/or comfort with friends to talk about happened.

That said, I'm so happy that I managed to get through it. I haven't found anything specific that'll help me through when I'm feeling down but I've got quite good at managing it -- my anxiety, at least. I've got some youtube people whose videos I'll watch if I'm reeeaally anxious, and that'll usually help. Thanks a lot, I'm on a train without speakers right now so I can't listen but I'll be sure to give it a listen when I get home. Thanks!