Thank you for sharing, Corvus. Growing up and feeling lost is strange, but a natural part of life. Accepting that you don't have all the answers, or that your perspective is limited, is a pretty huge stumbling block for most people. I know some colleagues and clients who are in their forties and haven't gotten there yet. :P There are many ways to draw comfort to yourself in this time, and at moments where the anxiety or depression returns. Finding one that works for you is a godsend and incredibly useful; if ever you need a listening ear, feel free to hit me up. I've got my own stories for anxiety and depression, as well as struggling through college and significant other personal/familial issues. You're not alone, buddy. This post certainly displays an admirable level of maturity and growth, but there's still a long way to go - for all of us, mind you. We're all on the same journey, just wandering different paths. I wish you the best in puzzling out your map for life, and will leave you with a link to a song that helps me out when I get really down. It's prog metal, though - not always to everyone's taste - though I recommend at least taking a look at the lyrics in the description. Take care!
Thanks a lot! I've only been here for a couple of days but I really felt at home and a day or so ago I just felt like typing this up -- I wasn't expecting anybody to see it because I only had about 2 people following me and the tags I used aren't very popular, so it really felt good when I saw such nice comments on my post from people who've been through the same I have. One of the hardest part of this was not being able to talk to anyone about it -- I've never been the kind to talk about how I feel, I just wasn't raised like that and I don't mind it. But sometimes talking about things like these helps, a lot. I was ashamed to tell people, so I just didn't. I dealt with it on my own, sharing only bits and pieces with a close friend of mine every now and then -- and I feel like I would've progressed much quicker had I had the courage and/or comfort with friends to talk about happened. That said, I'm so happy that I managed to get through it. I haven't found anything specific that'll help me through when I'm feeling down but I've got quite good at managing it -- my anxiety, at least. I've got some youtube people whose videos I'll watch if I'm reeeaally anxious, and that'll usually help. Thanks a lot, I'm on a train without speakers right now so I can't listen but I'll be sure to give it a listen when I get home. Thanks!