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OftenBen  ·  3692 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: What does it mean to forgive?

    Isn't waiting for school to be over just another condition? Won't there be something else afterwards?

Most likely.

    Why not start loving yourself now, no matter the situation?

Work in progress my friend. Some days are easier than others.

    Once I learned how much debt I was in, I hated myself for deciding to get that piece of paper.

I have note on the desktop of my computer that has a running tally of my student debt on it.

    Hmm, that's interesting for you to have that realization. I think it might be healthy to at least allow yourself some happiness. Yes, being content while others are starving may not be the best, but realizing how nice our current situation in this country is should allow some happiness.

Again, working on it. Me being happy does not increase someone elses suffering. I have to repeat that to myself. When I am happy I try not to acknowledge it, because it will flee just as quickly. Mostly that last bit just makes me feel guilty. By a cosmic roll of the dice I was born in a place with medicine advanced enough to allow me to survive. By the roll of the same dice, hundreds of kids under 6 years old will die, burned to death in a sewer pipe by police officers in Bogota.





alpha0  ·  3691 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Listen

(I certainly hope you are seeing a therapist.)

    [gifts, talents, self-abnegation, ...

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew%2025&version=KJV

OftenBen  ·  3691 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I definitely am.

I appreciate the song.

For future reference, I am an ex-christian, and will be anti-christian for quite some time. This isn't an attack on you by any means, but the bible gives me no satisfaction. My faith, when I had it, gave me no comfort and was a source of a lot of stress and anxiety.