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comment by teenagewangst
teenagewangst  ·  4316 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Milkshakes

I have ended up walking to go get a milkshake, but I would say that part of the appeal is that I don't have them very often. I really should try enjoying small things more, I can get caught up in my thoughts pretty easily. As well as being frugal - going to the grocery store is a fun game of what percent/how much money I can save by buying things on sale - even though it's not a particularly large sum of money.

If you couldn't tell, I also get caught up in being self-deprecating, guilty, and negative, not so much because I am all those things all the time, but that being the opposite feels disingenuous. It's a bit of a defense mechanism, so to speak, where being preemptively self-deprecating is an attempt to cancel out any sense of ego that comes out, which is an odd thing to combine with a variable amount of self-confidence.

All of this stuff comes out when I spend too much time alone, thinking. Thank goodness for music.





ButterflyEffect  ·  4316 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Well yes, the more often you do something the less special or unique it seems. Not to mention the health effects of getting a milkshake on a regular basis are not very good! That's something is fun for you, but is necessary for other people, it's good that you even think about it. At least that's how I feel.

I have noticed that, and it reminds me very much of a friend that I have here at college. I think that might fit in with you're not wanting to be disliked immediately part, people aren't as warm to somebody who shows an ego. Meanwhile, somebody who can take themselves lightly is usually regarded in a better light. Music is a great thing, isn't it? Hope you enjoy your milkshake!