First off, I guess I'm in a similar rut. Every day seems to drag out endlessly. The days are long, the nights are even longer. I feel as if I'm separated from the world, numb and friendless. My family is going through some divisive issues at the moment and I know I'm seriously fucking up some of my relationships. My fraying tempers are definitely not helping. And typically, that's what I've found happens when I fall in a rut. It negatively affects the way I think and act, which in turn, makes it harder for me to become 'genuinely happy' again. It helps to know that really aren't that bad. My family has gone through similar situations in the past and made it out in one piece. And it's reassuring to know that I have close friends I can talk to, even if I'm not doing so right now. I have a clear goal for college, even if I don't know where it'll lead. Simply taking a moment to rest my mind and realize these facts- by meditating, by talking to a friend, or by posting anonymously online- helps me to focus my thoughts. Thanks.
No thank you man. It's nice to get it out there, even if you don't know the person. Simply realizing what's up can help so much.