I've been trying to hand more things off or at least cross train a bit, but people keep coming to me with the old problems because they know I'll give them a straight, clear answer they can act on rather than an ambiguous response that doesn't address their need.

My frustration is we have a major change being pushed on us, and after a year plus of gaslighting me over the problem and solutions it's all pushed on me to deal with. I can do it, or more accurately I could have done it if given the resources and support a year ago.

And the flip side is I don't think anyone else can do it. I'm usually not so self confident, but it's a problem that requires a certain creativity in engineering not many have. It's a problem that needs to be worked from both ends. Others could drive down the technical challenge but end up in a dead end. And others know what the solution looks like but have no ability to create it. Marrying the two together is harder, and it's what they'll struggle with without me.

I've been here seventeen years. I figure if I can get the same run in the next company I can retire then.