I don't remember how I ended up there but somehow I started listening to the Steppenwolf audiobook recently. It's some depressing middle aged incel bullshit so far. I seem to be really bad a picking books lately, I don't think I've finished one in a while. I think the last book I enjoyed was "Educated: a memoir" about this lady that grew up in a family of religious nutcases.
"Educated: a memoir" sounds really interesting, although maybe a bit sad/difficult/emotional.
It was exactly those things. There are also many gruesome and detailed descriptions of all kinds of injuries and how they treat them themselves without going to the doctors. But I found it a really goon insight of what goes on in the mind of someone trapped in an extremely bad family situation, and how even if you're really smart undoing that damage is not easy or straightforward.