Ah, fair enough - I think I misinterpreted a pretty decent amount of your original comment :)

For what it's worth, I don't think life is shit. I also don't really subscribe to nihilistic thought much, I'm just fascinated with the reasoning behind it and the different conclusions that have been spun from it. If there's no meaning...What does that mean? Where does that lead?

I also think I protect myself well by not worrying about them too much. Maybe life doesn't have meaning, but who cares? Like you said, I'm pretty satisfied. I like the hypothetical, but I figure that the pursuit of an answer doesn't really lead to satisfaction, and the answer itself isn't really something I'm interested in determining. I like the evaluation, not the conclusion. I'll slap an absurdist label on that mindset if it helps people, but I don't really care to know if Camus is right; I know he had some interesting thoughts, and that's good enough.

I think I'm more interested in contextualism in architecture than philosophy anyways