Similarly to War, my dad's brother. The ONLY thing I know about him is the one sentence my dad told me after my brother died: "I had another brother. Mark. He was an engineer, so he killed himself by piping exhaust into his car. He was 22. I don't talk about him". I don't know if it was just that he was frazzled at the time, but he definitely said "so".

We have a family friend named Mark. I had always assumed that's who I got my middle name from.

I want to ask my dead uncle what he was like. I want to ask him what my dad, his brother, was like when he was my age. I want to know what he would feel like knowing I share his name, his age.

What's it like being an engineer? Every man in my dad's family for 3 generations was a builder or an engineer, except my dad (who I guess disappointed everyone by becoming a lawyer?), and I feel like if a few things had changed, I might be one too. I want to understand everything, I want to know how it all fits together and how to take it apart and make it better. I want to build.

What's it like dying from exhaust? Would he have done it again?