I find this fascinating because I'm the opposite. My first list is very much long term directions I want to go, but my second list seems to consist of entirely too much video games and beer drinking time. I suppose it's a good thing that I'm somewhat aware of the second list at all, but I continually live with the feeling that if I really wanted the things on the first list I would study more and play less.
Perhaps you do want the things on the first list because you've been told that they will give you the things on the second list, only more sustainably. What do you get from video games and beer drinking: feelings of success and smartness and altered states, and you can get it cheaply and quickly. For a while.if I really wanted the things on the first list I would study more and play less.