I mean this in the kindest possible way (but there isn't many kind ways to say this) but - YOU AREN'T THE CENTER OF UNIVERSE; THE THING EVERYTHING REVOLVES AROUND. You have to get that, hopefully YOU are the center of YOUR world, but that isn't the case for others. It should never be. We might let people come close to being our center, revolve around eachother, maybe only one person, maybe a whole solar system of people. But that happens with kindness and time - not anger and impatience.
I'm just a ceaseless optimist.
You're right. When I lash out at people, it's because I feel insecure. It's nobody's fault but something for me to work on - but in those moments, I seemingly forget about it, which is convenient if I want to, say, boost my self-esteem by putting someone else down. It's a mindset I'm working my way out of, but, as you can see, it doesn't happen without casualties. If I am to be fair, though, I'm proud of what I'm doing because, as dirty as it is, it's better than it used to be a year or two ago, and for me, it's big. Thank you for engaging despite my worse behavior and reminding me of what's important. Being treated like a decent human being makes me want to act like one.
Knowing that is what you are doing is a huge step in the journey of stopping to do that.