On Saturday I broke up with someone because she wanted a relationship, and I don't. She told me, "You are the worst. You should remove yourself from the dating pool." And that warmed my cold heart, not because I knew she was right, but because nothing says you care like being upset when it's over. She was a nice girl and she will do much better than me in the future.
Single people say crazy things... I did. I said, "I don't want to get involved for five years." And I believed that I meant it. but then something happens...or seems to happen... or might be happening... and everything changes ... and five years are over in six months. or I actually am hallucinating. We'll see.
I thought that I was no longer prone to hallucination. Because you grow out of it. You stop seeing things. And feeling things that are too intense to be real can't be. Real or otherwise. They can't be. Simply I thought I had put away childish things. Her mom asked if we had eloped. What are you? Teenagers? I didn't think I could be, but yeah, ma'am. I guess so. I was chasing the wrong dragon. She is a pharmaceutical woman. She is a time machine. She takes me with her.
I want to badge all three of these comments. Came to the realization the other day that I don't want to be in a relationship (not that I am currently). But it's a weird thing to say to someone, how do you explain that to people. How do you know it's not just a defense.