Last thread went so well, figured I'd pull a classic pablo and ask you guys the opposite. So what don't you miss? What-- or who-- are you glad to be rid of? What makes your life better than it used to be?
I'm so glad I don't have to deal with the incredible apathy that surrounded me back when I was in public school. Obviously teenagers will be teenagers, and I'll have kind of lazy classmates wherever I go, but now that I'm at a school for the gifted, my peers are much more likely to care about a given issue, or be open to discussion about things that matter to me. It's great.
What about you guys?
P.S. I'm feeling significantly better about the breakup now. Thanks everyone for the kind words :) (but you still owe me that story, nowaypablo)
Having to rely on friends and family to bail me out of debt or jail or homelessness. Having to look in their eyes and see nothing but pity, or worse, apathy. I'm stronger now. My days of begging are behind me, but I will never forget how low I once was. I was very lucky to have people, many don't. For all the fun I thought I was having I don't miss The Aftermath one damn bit.
Roommates Apartments Driving an unreliable car Living paycheck to paycheck Smoking My old bed Michigan winters
My mother's Ex was horrible to me. It was a standard custody split. He got every other weekend. During those weekends he would insult my mother, insult me, and constantly yell at me for things I'd done. He was also always coming up with things I should "work on." It made me feel like a problem to be fixed. About a year ago I finally built up the courage to say no, and left him. I haven't talked to him since. Good fucking riddance.
I don't miss slowly going insane and feeling like I was going to be stuck in a rut forever.
Ha. You'll make a fine apprentice. So basically I will take all your shames now because I started writing the story and realized it's gonna be so freakin' long it's impossible. I'm going to make it into a #significantstoriesbypablo post because that's both quicker and I kinda wanted to do it anyway. So you have to wait, im sorry :[ You should know that there was nothing better you could've done than talk to her about it, even if it ended in a breakup. You owe it to yourself to not waste the time in a different world than the person you were committed to. I had my girl's picture on my phone background for an almost creepily long amount of time after we broke up, because it was really hard to give up on that. I was lurking a little on Hubski whenever I could these last few days and I remember someone saying along the lines of this, though I can't find a link: The girl your story reminded me of in my life is that girl, that standard of love. However I thought that my very first love would be the same, only afterwards did I realize how much my involvement in that relationship paled in comparison to what I felt for this girl. I still think about her like all the time because somehow she won't leave my life and I think our story is still playing out. I can't focus on a point. My point is feel all the pain hurt and sorrow that you want, don't hold it in or hold it back or lie to yourself just let it hurt cause it fucking hurts, and should hurt. Bad. When the pain subsides look ahead and focus on yourself. Improve all the things you've always wanted to and start taking steps to being a better man after your relationship. Especially things you felt she held you back on. Fucking go for it, be a gladiator. When you start becoming really happy with yourself your confidence is going to hail subconscious testosterone on every chick in your sight, and eventually you'll find someone else in time that will rock your world, that you weren't even looking for. After my very first relationship I was so happy to be done, but didn't realize how much better I could feel about myself until I started doing things with my spare time instead like working out, reading, listening to music and letting out everything I was changing into, and still am changing into. Anyway, good luck. You'll be fine. I don't miss everything I ever was before today.Figured I'd pull a classic pablo and ask you guys the opposite.
You're going to fall in love,, and when it ends it's going to be her that you compare absolutely all other emotions towards. Doesn't matter how long ago it was or how hard that love fell, every other person is going to be held to the standard of that love.
Just coverin' while you were in Siberia, chum. Shaaaame. Seriously though, it's cool. I'm actually pretty glad that I called her too, I had sort of realized beforehand that it wasn't worth being in a secret relationship anymore, so it didn't hurt as much as it might've. It felt like when she broke up with me the last time we sort of had unfinished business, so I was glad to get back together, but now it's pretty much over, so I'm working on moving on. Obviously I miss her, but I'll be ok. As lil is fond of mentioning, "Time is a machine that turns pain into experience."Ha. You'll make a fine apprentice.
So basically I will take all your shames now
I am misquoting slightly, Charles Yu - sci fi writer. Man, that guy can come up with depressing quotations depressing - but awesome and true. Like this, “You want to tell a story? Grow a heart. Grow two. Now, with the second heart, smash the first one into bits." Ouch I think I'll make that my new sigline.