Man, I'm right here with you. I've realized I'll never be mentally free unless what I am in total control of what I do everyday. My job is great. I get paid to do things I'd do for free to satisfy my own curiosity and it's a relatively new field. But the company doesn't belong to me, I have to answer to someone else and their judgments determine whether I can even survive. I'm not cool with that. Also, exploring as many of the remaining subcultures as I can. I am constantly working on expanding my music collection. Have this home improvement plan that revolves around making the space, open, interactive, and comforting. Friends have liked the results so far.
"I'll never be mentally free unless I am in TOTAL control of what I do every day." My new mantra. You put that perfectly.