Anxiety is the simple answer, solely because I know it pretty well. People in my day to day life tend to think of me as a mellow guy; a girl at work has a photo of me with the definition of 'nonchalant' pinned next to it. Nope. I'm on seroxat after having anxiety attacks during my third year of university. An example: the last thing I wrote was an interpretation of Telemachus as a worry-ridden man who watches his slaves talk to each other to calm his busy mind. Every day he walks across his grounds and becomes trapped in a bubble of liquid that seeps out through cracks in his skull. He drowns. It's a not-so-subtle metaphor for what the attacks felt like. It's very strange typing this out, as I don't normally talk about it except in very abstract terms. Have you ever tried writing? I ask because the maps seem like a creative outlet.
Never really gave it a shot, though I do write music, so that helps with stuff like that.
Do you have any online to link to? No worries if not, I'm just curious.
Not currently, as my guitarist has all the raw files on his laptop. Kind of like the cure meets blink 182 ish if I had to categorize it.