It's okay ;) You have a lot in front of you, young not-named-Pablo. The friends you have in high school often turn out not to be your lifelong friends. Sometimes, they do - but real life tends to start happening to people in college, and by real life I don't mean that what you're doing right now is real - I mean "the unfortunate, shitty stuff." One friend's dad unexpectedly died. I had another friend who got pregnant and dropped out. My brother got kicked out of college two or three times. My grandfather died; another friend had several family members die. Plus relationships start being - well, more real. You have those life experiences that really make you take a stand on things, whereas in high school I mostly had theoretical opinions. "Abortion should be legal, because you should have that choice, but I hope to never have one." (That was me.) Now it's: "Abortion should be legal, because if it wasn't, I'd be in hell." Edit: And those real-life experiences are the ones that tend to schism or draw together groups of people, that's where I was going with that. I mentioned I think my high school friends were scandalized by the abortion...but what were my other options, really? When shit happens you have to deal with it. I am not in any way trying to discount what you are learning now, both in school and socially. There is just a lot ahead of you as well and it doesn't get easier.
Thank you, Jedi refugee, the great underscored one. I know that I dont know everything that you're talking about. Those aren't experiences that are elements of my life up to now. But as painful as they may be ,the character and strength that I will gain is valuable enough for me to be looking forward to it. I'm not saying anyone deserves what you've been through, but you should be proud every moment of every day that you're standing with the strength you have now, after all that. I respect the hardship you've been through, and will keep your story in mind if/when I have hard times of my own :) Jftr, I found out just last year that my mom had an abortion as well, either right after my birth or beforehand. I don't know what to make of it, and I simply trust now that she did what she had do. I can't elaborate too much atm but from what she explained, she was forced into it by my father. They're now divorced, and he lives far far away with another family of his own. Why cant things be simple? xD