what I see is someone who is not sure of who they are, of what value they are, and yet wants other people to see what you yourself can't even see. That's a tall order.

Sure is. You made me think about this, and there's no clear answer I can give to either of the questions. This is only partly surprising to me; perhaps I always knew this but was never able to articulate it consciously. In my thoughts, I came to the conclusion that it's nothing I can work on, directly; instead, things I do and act upon make me what I am. I'm not completely shallow and empty, but there's a lot of space to build to, nonetheless.

My suggestion is that you start volunteering.

This one is a tall order for me, as well. I'm anxious even when entering a new group of people I don't have to interact with much - and a group of people I am to help? That sounds like a big obstacle for me. I'm a helper with performance anxiety, so going for volunteering might become... difficult.

I'll try, though, when I come to terms with it. I've always wanted to help people, and I do feel good when I do.

Thank you, goobster. I appreciate what you said.