Thank you for sharing, Corvus. Growing up and feeling lost is strange, but a natural part of life. Accepting that you don't have all the answers, or that your perspective is limited, is a pretty huge stumbling block for most people. I know some colleagues and clients who are in their forties and haven't gotten there yet. :P There are many ways to draw comfort to yourself in this time, and at moments where the anxiety or depression returns. Finding one that works for you is a godsend and incredibly useful; if ever you need a listening ear, feel free to hit me up. I've got my own stories for anxiety and depression, as well as struggling through college and significant other personal/familial issues. You're not alone, buddy. This post certainly displays an admirable level of maturity and growth, but there's still a long way to go - for all of us, mind you. We're all on the same journey, just wandering different paths. I wish you the best in puzzling out your map for life, and will leave you with a link to a song that helps me out when I get really down. It's prog metal, though - not always to everyone's taste - though I recommend at least taking a look at the lyrics in the description. Take care!