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goobster  ·  1661 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: May 13, 2020

Yep. I'm having anxiety for the first time in my life. Chest seizing up... brain squirrels spinning madly on crazy shit... out of breath... tense all over... snippy and aggro with my wife... for NO PERCEIVABLE REASON.

Except... The World.

I'm coping with it by looking it straight in the eye, and giving it none of my life force or energy when I feel it get the upper hand on me. I just watch it spin and do its thing, and keep myself even-keeled, breathing, drinking water, and even meditating.

The best one was the other day my wife and I were on the couch, and I felt it coming on, and narrated the whole thing to her as it came on, tried to take over, and eventually passed. I was able to separate myself from it, and watch it happen. It was weird. And powerful.





_refugee_  ·  1659 days ago  ·  link  ·  

My resting heart rate is measurably elevated from mid-Feb and won’t go down to the rates I was hitting back then regardless of the health hacks I try. I’m forced to admit we just might be living in a more stressful world.

goobster  ·  1657 days ago  ·  link  ·  

The World needs to just take a fuckin chill pill and stop being so .... EXTRA.

Sheesh. We got LIVES we are trying to live here, people!! :-)