EXCUSE ME I NOW HAVE A VALENTINES DATE WITH A GUY WHOM, WHEN I ASKED HIM IF HE MIGHT BE ABLE TO HELP ME WITH A FEW FIXIT HOUSE THINGS LAST NIGHT (I offered repayment via making him dinner or cash or whatever, he’s a friend but you gotta say thank you for this sort of stuff) RESPONDED BY ASKING FOR MY ADDRESS AND SHOWING UP TO HELP CLEAN GROATY STUFF LIKE MY SHOWER DRAIN WITHIN A HALF HOUR.

I fed him short rib and we asked each other what (in life) we were afraid of. Among other things

He let me pick the movie for v-day (because what I really wanted to do was have him take me shooting/teach me how to shoot - what can I say I’m quite romantic but I have a rather warped sense of what’s romance) and we finna see I Tonya which I’ve wanted to see forever and yaayyyyyyyyyy

I just figured, I mean, if I didn’t see what he was doing on the 14th I knew I’d be alone. And I don’t do the chocolates and roses thing and I don’t need the fancy dinner or etc, this is after all a second date and I’m aimkng for low pressure. So I put it out there. And I’m so pleased he’s not being weird about it being Valentine’s Day and “super meaningful” or whatever. Like, it’s just Valentine’s Day. And if we didn’t hang out we’d probably both just be alone and feel it. So why not enjoy a good time together and not overthink or buy into the “significance” of the holiday, as if to go out ok Valentine’s Day indicates a level of super serious coupledom when really...we can just have a fun time while also not pointedly spending the holiday alone?

Also, fam, attest to the wonder that was me, openly asking another person for help, and not trying to prove I can do everything on my own without you thankyouverymuch. I actually like “let a man be a man”, which is a ridiculous concept but I did it. See. Only 95% of guys can report finding me “emasculating” now, after this.

Did anyone hear a crashing sound? I think that was that chip...that used to be in my shoulder...

;) :D