Sorry you have to go through all that :( Can't imagine how hard that would be. Sometimes a drastic change of pace and environment can help a lot. Personally, I find momentum really powerful. When I get productive, it will last as long as I don't stop. When I get sad, it gets harder to get over it the longer I'm sad. I have trouble going back to normal after like 3 days, I can't can't imagine how much the effect is probably magnified when the sadness turns into depression :( I hope this trip helps you out, my best memories are travel related, it really is an amazing expereience with loads of interesting encounters. And the cool part is that you're under no obligation to keep in contact with people unless you want to. Sometimes you get super close and have the time of your life with someone for 3 days. They become family and they you part ways and never talk again. I like the idea that after a while you become a mini chapter in someone's life.