I've been frustrated with school for a long time now. It's an investment for a future which isn't 100% guaranteed to be remotely related to my studies. The biggest mistake I've made was not taking the opportunity or initiative to take a gap year. I'm lucky enough to be on a track to graduate without loans/debt, and could well likely pick up where I left off financially when/if I decide to come back to it all. Lord knows I want to steer clear of living back home with parents. I've been holding out from taking action since, unfortunately, I don't have any insight into what I'd have to do once I'm out of academia. The only people I really discuss this with in the end are family, which in retrospect is pretty circular when it comes back to them convincing/encouraging me to "stick it out because you can" with regard to finances, leading me back to the same frustration after a moon's turn. In another way, it's like they're calling a bluff knowing I don't have control over even my own savings account. I guess it comes down to knowing the comfort of my current situation versus who knows. Boiling it down, a break from the bureaucratic, repetitive shithole that school(s) can be is all I'm looking for. I know enough to know that there's so much to gain from formal education an all, I'd just like to get out there and DO something in the world aside from rote theory, internships, and all the rest culminating to what feels like some sort of zero sum game. I feel like I am gaining nothing of personal value hanging around, just grinding my face to stone for 3 years running.
If there's any question, I guess it'd be for your advice or thoughts. On the other hand, maybe I just needed to rant and that's it, who knows. Thanks for reading.