Oscillating between feeling stressed, overwhelmed and not productive after coming back from vacation with all the accumulated work and big things starting to shape up for spring time and summer. But also sometime feeling recharged, happy social life is coming back. But then with the house sliding into a state of complete messiness. I think one thing to blame is my completely erratic schedule lately, where I've been finding it impossible to find a groove. Even my sleep cycle is fucked, which is usually a constant for me. It's like even the thought of starting a new project is stress inducing right now. I need a break, but I can't quite figure out from what because my off life work is just as project focussed, and I've already detached myself from a bunch of responsibilities I've had last year. How can I be so over my head, with only 30h on the clock per week? Something's not right... I feel better, but have been trying to motivate myself to get up, clean and take a shower for the past 24h. WTF. This is embarrassing and I should be better.