Had my final interview 2 days ago, and a much needed talk with my friend/potential future boss about our complicated relationship. Proud of myself about how I handled it all, and I feel much better now that I've laid all my cards on the table. Looks like there is one other strong candidate for the job i want, I've done everything that could be done and now it's just a waiting game until to board makes a final decision. If they don't pick me, I think it means i'm not the right person for the job because i've been honest about what i bring to the project and my wants/expectations. It will disappoint me, but the concerns they brought up about potential pitfalls are valid and I can see why they might want to hire someone with an outsider perspective vs someone like me that has been involved almost since the start. So my life will either change dramatically in the next few weeks, or not at all. I do need some change right now, so if this is not the change that comes, I'll need to make something else happen. I have a few other vague ideas of a direction I'd like to take in my life, that will involve some research about the opportunities available to me. I'll delay this research until i get a confirmation on the job, but 2021 is a year I need to make some decisions and moves career-wise.