I've made progress in some ways by more consciously acknowledging that my brain is wonky. I've stopped saying "I feel bad because [this thing happened in my life or this this missing]," and just acknowledged that "I feel bad because I'm currently wired to do so." It helps avoid tying myself into knots.

I'm finding antidepressants kind of annoying for this first week, which I think is to be expected. I've definitely felt less weight on my mood, but I've also felt devoid of much else. Very flat, but there's still stuff floating around in there if I look hard enough.

My career remains a dead end. I didn't score high enough on the situational judgment + work history testing nonsense that would've led to possibly getting something much better, and at this point I have 0 prospects. For that matter, I'm not even really sure what I'd be qualified for. I coasted for so much of my life that I don't feel like I ever really developed anything that would allow me to stand out. Plus I hate marketing myself with a passion. On a related note, I'd like to do more to get more students, but haven't really found anything that makes sense. I dislike the things that one basically has to do in order to be successful in the business world, and certainly don't have the budget to hire someone else. So I remain pretty stuck.