So i really fit in in my new class, and it is wonderful. It is 80% girls and one of the 4 boys chose this school/program precisely because of this. It's a really supportive atmosphere and people are really honest and open. It is also a certified "nice class" ( nice class is in my experience a term used by teachers to denote a class that wont use every speck of personal information they give out to hurt them) And like, this class deserves this distinction. I'm probably pathologically secretive about stuff and I have been quite open about stuff with this class. And like, I like this. I don't mind being in this state at all, school no longer feels like a thing to power through to get away from everything here. I feel like my life is in quite a fixed state, so that's fun for someone who has spent a large part of their life trying to fix it.