That's an interesting point of view. So, you don't believe that God has a plan for everything? that maybe he's giving people nothing they can't handle?

And honestly telling I was much happier earlier, when i meditated and it helped me getting stress free and optimistic.

You no longer meditate? Why?

(side note: I gotta make that #talkreligion post about prayer. I'll ping you when that happens so that you could take part in the conversation. In case you don't know, #talkreligion started as a dialogue between the religious person in the face of rd95 and an atheist in the face of myself, as we keep the topic of correspondence of those two points of view while inviting everyone to join the conversation)

but reality is always non glamorous, no?

A thought that helps me is that the Universe is under no obligation to do well onto people. Jean-Paul Sartre has said it best in his writing on existentialism, and I'll rephrase it for the sake of brevity:

Human beings are capable of making choices, and not making a choice is, itself, a choice. Recognizing that and acting according to one's agency is what brings one happiness.

While we may act as if bad things happen to us, it's in our power to act differently - better - towards the same circumstance. You can weep, or you can work to get out of it. You can complain, or you can change it. The world isn't pretty, but it isn't supposed to be. Accepting things the way they are is the first step to doing better.

and at least, the name of God is necessary to enforce conformity to those values.

Do you believe that, without God and his followers enforcing His laws/commandments/moral rules, human being would be uncaring, selfish and otherwise immoral?

some people on earth are killing their fellow beings(who are obvious) in the name of God(who is not obvious).

I like how you point that out, and it's a good point.

Thank you for replying in such a detailed way.