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user-inactivated  ·  3024 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 17, 2016

Person's big fat update:

I stopped coming around hubski because I harbored a deep hatred/resentment for myself that was manifesting itself here and other places online so I decided I needed a break. Went to South Korea and Japan, relaxed a little bit, wallowed in weeb shit in Akihabara and bought a bunch of Kpop in Buson, then came back and fasted. Started hating myself again because fuck this election so that sucked, but I aired it all out on Twitter [surprisingly(?) effective for that sort of thing], and got over it for the most part. Started doing music reviews for RPGFan. Watched a lot of Steven Universe to cheer up. Replaced bags of recess cups with walks around my complex. Got a roommate that isn't complete shit. Then my laptop broke which was REALLY upsetting but my sis helped me get a Surface Book as a replacement (after I got paid I returned the favor by helping her get a Macbook for college, which she starts next month). Found out the Surface Book is actually really really nice for drawing, and since I was hating the fact that most of my identity came from shitposting online and playing videogames, I started doing lots of art with it. I also watched Haikyuu and now I play volleyball a lot, lol.

I still struggle with my deep, deep, DEEP inferiority complexs. I still wonder why I should do anything if I don't show immediate signs of improvement, or if I'm not the absolute best at it. I still mostly have a shit attitude, especially online. When school starts I'll probably be depressed as shit a week in, HAH, BUT I'm learning to cope with those sorts of things so that's good I guess. I probably won't be around hubski very often still but I'll be lurking...watching...silently judging your shit taste in hiphop...

kleinbl00 I played No Man's Sky and got bored with it but I'm living off of the entitled salt that people are spewing at Sean Murry for not delivering the Patron Saint of videogames. I probably won't be picking up a controller again until FFXV/Gravity Rush 2 come out. After that, Persona 5 on February 14th - lord knows I won't be doing anything then!

e. oh I grew a beard