I've become addicted to a little logic game called 0h h1. I've been playing and mastering it for a long time, but recently I started catching myself obsessively playing it in my head, while trying to get to sleep. I once lost sleep over playing Dota 2 this way, so I'm wary of this new development.

People of Hubski have been posting all those wonderful things they've done or are in process of doing, one more magnificent than another, and I've been thinking how come I'm not doing something like that when I'm clearly capable. I realized that the reason was that I grew up in a community of fatalists - people who believe that if things are destined to happen, they will, and if not, well, that's too bad. It's a sharp contrast to the people of Hubski, who have been nothing but encouraging to one another, whatever the circumstances. Blessing I found this place; not sure what I would be without it right now.

I'm in a shitty place of mind right now. I feel like a miserable subhuman. It's objectively and subjectively incorrect of me to do so, but it's what I'm feeling being in this place I reluctantly call home. Still, the best practice to make most out of a bad situation, and I'm not going to sit around waiting for Santa to come. It's just... A little encouragement would be nice. To know that I can do this and leave peacefully with a result to be proud of once the next year of studying starts.