I've completely lost the thread.

My contract ended. But I have other work to do. But I just can't seem to get anything moving forward at all.

I have one BIG writing gig I need to be about half way done with... and I haven't even looked at the source materials yet.

My totally happy family life got a big jolt when my sister left her boyfriend kinda suddenly. They'd been together for years, and he's as much a part of our family now as she is. She still loves him very much, and he loves her and is lost without her, but... well... emotions and feelings and stuff. And all I can do is help my sister move out, and text him that he's still my brother in spirit, and... yeah. Suck.

A friend died last year pretty suddenly, just as he and his wife got into a nasty divorce. Now he's dead and she's trying to liquidate their vacation property so she can move on... but the meth addicts found it and... well, they did what meth-heads do. So I spent the weekend working with/for a woman I don't respect, to honor the memory of a dead friend... and clean up needles and trash and shit and... it was soul-sucking work.

Spent yesterday driving around another friend with massive Stage 4 colon cancer. Errands, the doctor's office for blood tests and iron, grocery store for food, etc. It's hard to see such a vibrant dude just wasting away. And he's in complete denial about it, too. So hard.

And finally, I still haven't applied for the job I REALLY WANT because I'm too panicked that I'm not going to do it well enough, and not get the job. So yeah. THAT's productive.

Might be pulling my turtle head back into my shell, and bringing a bottle of Makers 46 with me.