Yeah, agreed! I'm perfectly happy with my life and don't feel any need to escape anything but i'm always open for new and fun experiences. I would not pass on the occasion to go on an epic rock climbing trip with and experienced and knowledgable friend the same way would not say no to going on a mushroom trip with the experienced and knowledgeable friend. Never done either, and I really want to do both. But the danger and lack of experience is what's stopping me of going at it by myself. And I unfortunately don't know anybody that does this kind of thing :( It really sucks because i'm in Chiang Mai right now with great mountains around and can't really afford to go on the "tour" of rock climbing expeditions. I can't go alone because I lack experience so i'll propably miss out on that. I'm stuck in the perpertual wanting things but never doing. Same goes mostly for drugs. I do know it's all doable if a dedicate the time into finding people, so maybe I don't want it hard enough?