My mother's cancer is back. Apparently it's worse than before. I don't know how that happens with as many follow up checks she had. She's having a surgery Monday, exploratory I think, but I have an inkling it's more than that and she's not telling me. I've known her long enough to know that tone of urgency in her voice. So I have to fly out immediately to CA for her immediately. I have no idea how I'm going to do that or afford it, especially with not knowing how long I will be there. Making 12k a year is fucking brutal because it doesn't leave room for emergencies. And more than that I hate even having to think about it. That I'm going to go home to help my mother through the hardest thing in her life and I have to fucking think about money.