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user-inactivated  ·  3360 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: September 16, 2015

I think I had a panic attack yesterday morning.

I can't say for sure but I think it was because it sprang from nowhere. Work has been fine and school has been fine and I've been really productive, but midway through making breakfast I just kinda curled up on the floor and said "everything is OK" a million times like I was trying to convince myself, lol.

I'm fine now but it left a weird bad taste in my mouth afterwards.

Meh.

Side note before I go off to class - it is weird to think how little I talk in a single day. All my classes are lectures, my first job has me at a computer with a boss that's gone till October leaving me to my own devices. I get back to my place the exact same time my roommate goes off to work most days. Then It's homework/job #2/personal projects for the rest of the day, then bed. Sometimes I will go an entire day not saying a word aloud. It's surreal when you think about it.

Edit: it's stuff like this Ahmed thing that make me not even want to get out of bed, lol.

    Ahmed told the Morning News that when he was taken into the room for questioning, an officer said, "Yup. That's who I thought it was." Ahmed, whose family immigrated to the US from Sudan, said he started feeling self-conscious about his Muslim name and brown skin.

Lol yeah no offense but fuck all of you, soon as I graduate I'M OUT, PEACE.