I don't know how much better everything could be expressed. We can't just pretend that every marriage is fixable to be some dreamy life partnership where everyone gets exactly what they want. Some of them are just mistakes that you couldn't have seen coming. Sometimes you just end up with someone who you don't get everything you need from and I don't think it's fair that we expect marriages to function like that. I don't want an affair. I just want to go get laid. I already get the emotional support that I need from my marriage. I don't get other things. I want those other things.

If he was sleeping with someone else I would be so angry, but it wouldn't be because he slept with someone else. It would be because he slept with someone else instead of sleeping with me. It's not like he has this exceptionally huge sexual appetite that I'm not satisfying. So if he cheated on me, I would be mad at him for denying me sex while giving it to himself. I don't think he will cheat though aside from the inherent lack of sexual appetite. If I'm thinking about our kid and divorce, I know that he is, and he wouldn't want to weaken his case for the lion's share of custody by cheating and getting caught.