Lately? "Here are my completely groundless and unexamined thoughts on a subject I barely understand, reward me."

Thanks for putting the vague worry I have lately into words. Too much of these comments feel related to me - I just started a blog, I'm probably trying too hard to be thoughtful, and for fucks sake, I even made that repost in #askhubski in _refugee_'s post. I catch myself sharing posts because I like the person, not just its content. My fear is to become that boring guy. That guy with a blog that nobody cares about. That I don't understand what I write well enough, yet people just share it.

I have no clue how to be thoughtful. How to be interesting. How to make something that is of value, that people care about besides me. I'm trying though. But trying alone isn't good enough, just as trying to be an artist doesn't make you one. Kindergarten would be filled with artists if trying was all that's needed to succeed.

I always feel like I don't know shit and most people here do, especially you. I keep doubting about every move I make, every sentence I write, hoping it will matter or mean something. Yet I always enjoy reading your posts, as they usually lie close to the real meaning of thoughtful. What I'm trying to ask with a tired, jet-lagged mind, is how can I not be boring? What constitutes an interesting post? What matters?