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T-Dog  ·  4001 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: What do you dream, Hubski?

I've had this dream a couple times and it always freaks me out. I know it's not exactly relevant but I've never talked about it before and it might help me to at least explain it. So, if you all don't mind:

I'm in a big fancy restaurant talking with a dude who I guess is my psychiatrist or something. There's a lot of background noise - people talking, glasses clinking, etc. this guy is asking me what's wrong and I'm telling him all the things in my dream life that don't quite add up. I say something along the lines of "do you ever walk into a room And feel like it only exists because you're there?" And then I ask "am I crazy?" And at that point every single person in the restaurant stops what they're doing, it becomes dead silent, and they all turn to stare at me. After a few seconds the dude says "no, that's completely normal, we all feel that way sometimes" and then everyone continues what they were doing. But now my dream self is aware that there's something weird going on so I ask again, "I am crazy, aren't i?" And it goes silent again but this time a guy from the table next to ours says "no, you're not crazy. Just trust me." Except now I know they're hiding something from me. So I keep saying it, and when they all start yelling at me to stop, I close my eyes and cover my ears and say "I am crazy I am crazy I am crazy" over and over again. The crowd gets angrier and angrier until I'm genuinely afraid for my life (and sanity) and then I wake up.