I had a near death experience when I was a kid while drowning. I know I wasn't just passing-out because it felt very different. Obviously, it was due to suffocating because I filled myself with water while trying to get air. My limbs went numb and stopped moving, I stopped feeling alarmed and I remember thinking "I could really use a nap. It's so warm and comfortable here," which at that point I think I forget where I was. I heard once there's a hormone your body makes when you're dying to officially start shutting things down - well, it definitely felt like that and that was what stood out from the experience. Very different feeling. Everything felt extremely comfortable, I stopped hearing, thinking, ect. and my vision was just white - I suppose maybe that is the "light at the end of the tunnel" effect?

I kind of choose to not worry about where we end up - because we just don't know. I got that close, and I didn't find out. That experience really disturbed me, especially as someone with depression. Imagine having suicidal thoughts paired with that memory - it just makes it that much harder. "Where do we go in the afterlife?" is kind of paired with "Why are we here in the first place?"